Torn

I'm now at a place in my life that I have never been.  I'm not working.  For a little over a month I have not had to get up and be anywhere until I wanted to or needed to, I am going to school from my home online.  I am reading with my children at night and cooking dinner and cleaning house, well most days anyway.  How am I accomplishing this?  I met a man who has all of his needs met by ways I am not really sure of.  It is a really strange situation to me.  He says that his family has money, I have not really seen any evidence of this but you'll soon know why I question everything he says anyway.  He is divorced and living in Tulsa, yes this is the same man that I defended till the end and lost my job to be with.  (In fights he yells that it was my additude that got me fired; I just say "Ok" and pretend to not know the real reason they let me go.... but I'm getting off of the subject)  So he is divorced, very smart lady that I would totally be friends with in real life but this is not real life and I think that it is a joke the way that he still has her wrapped around is finger so I cannot really have much respect for her.  She pays our rent, she pays all of our bills, she stocks food in our house, she lets us drive her car, all of this is more helpfull to me and my children than anything that has ever been given to me.  Especially now.  It is a weird situation; I may have said that already but it really is.  This man and I spend zero time together, he has websites where he still meets women around town and claims that he wants a new relationship to bloom here in Tulsa.  I am here in a house with my two children living with a man who I have nothing to do with.  When his ex-wife is off of work (I actually still call her his wife because I do not see where the ex comes into play) she comes and gets him, they go to the mall, they go to the grocery store, they go to dinner, Bed Bath and Beyond, Accademy, you get the point.  They spend hours and hours together, she buys him everything that he wants they drive around, well he drives her around as a good husband should and they spend time as a family.  He takes her to work, takes their daughter to child care, then picks her up from work as soon as she calls.  And I am here.  There is no interatction between us.  We do not talk, we do not sleep in the same bed, most nights he sleeps on the couch and I sleep in my bed.  I try not to leave my room durring the day because he is constantly searching for and chatting with women online.  I have found over five matchmaking websites that he has active profiles listed and the things he is looking for are graphic.  The newest was activated three days ago.  We have "been together" for two months.  None of this is normal to me.  I do not know how to handle it.  I know that I need to finish school, I know that it is good the time I am finally getting to spend with my kids, but I also know that this is not good for my spirit.  It almost seems like on some level that God is allowing us to be taken care of but how do I do the rest of this?  How do I convince myself that I am not the one that matters here, that if I leave my kids will change schools I will be dropped from classes again and that this situation is really not that bad?  The kids are happy, he is happy, I am the only one that is dying.  I pray that I can find a way to detach myself and make it through this.  I mean isn't this what every girl dreams of is someone to take care of her and pay her bills so she doesn't have to work?  LOL, the wife just arrived he has to leave now, never a goodbye, he never says where he is going or when he will be back he just walks out the front door.   Note to self, independance is priceless.